Week fourteen has been pretty uneventful.. I think at this point I'm going to switch from weekly posts to every other week or so until I've got some major changes going on...
I've been feeling pretty good, and I've been getting out of the house to do things a little more often (which has been nice)
Mike and I have went for dinner a couple of times, My mom and I went to see and movie, We all went garage saleing as a family, and I got to go out with some friends over the weekend..
It's been really nice that some of our friends from Warren have been able to come up here and visit.. (and I love them for it) Also I ran into some good friends from around here as well, and it was great to get to see them!
My stomach (as appears to me) is looking a little fuller, but I'm still in all of the same clothes.. (some of them are starting to get a little uncomfortable) I've been getting this bloating (I guess you would call it) when I eat. To the point where my upper stomach gets hard as a rock, and sticks out really far, then my clothes feel tight, and its hard to breath a little.. This has been stopping me from finishing meals, and is something I will be asking my doctor about.. It was even so bad the other night while out with my mom, we had to go to the store and buy workout pants to put on instead of my jeans so I could sit through the movie.. It will last sometimes the rest of the day or night, and sometimes only a few hours and them my stomach will return to normal...
Other than that there have really been no new developments... Dr's appt is being rescheduled to find out the sex of the baby... guess my doc is no longer going to be in the office that day, NICE!
About Me
- Alicia Marie Mommy to be :)
- Capac/Yale/Warren, michigan, United States
- I am a 27 year old mother to be. This blog is meant to share my ups and downs during this, my first pregnancy. I'm super excited, and terrified. There are a lot of unknowns in my future, but baby I am so down for the ride.
Monday, March 26, 2012
Well I'm bored... Let's get crafty!!
I've been going stir crazy lately... I really wish I had a car to go get a job... Just something part time, to keep my mind occupied... (Soon enough hopefully) Until then I've thought of a few projects I could do to keep me a little busier during the day.
I, like many other people am addicted to pinterest.com (follow my pins) There are so many great ideas on there that I would love to make happen, the problem has always been, where am I going to find the materials?? (I hit sort of a mini jackpot here) My area of MI is full of OLD falling down barns, rarely however do you get the opportunity to get into them and dig around.. but I found one!!
What started out to be just following the signs for a moving sale, turned into (and I wish I hadn't dressed so nice) digging through an old barn and some out buildings.. As soon as I saw the old broken things in the barn my head thought PINTEREST!! I know what I can make out of all this old stuff..
There was A LOT of things that I wanted to take, but we were offered the opportunity to go back after the people moved out and take more (double score) so I just took a few things: - An old barn ladder, an old metal rake and bucket, some small metal parts and pieces from an old tractor (which are really heavy)...
Here's my loot !!
(PIC TO COME, it's cold today.)
Let's see what I cam make.. I have a few things in mind that I want to try, hopefully they will turn out, and I will post the results, when I'm finished!!
Also with the turn in the weather we've had today from 80 degrees last week, to 47 degrees! (gotta love Michigan weather..) I've found a little indoor project as well... Which will allow me to get out the sketch pad again!! (I haven't drawn in forever)
I, like many other people am addicted to pinterest.com (follow my pins) There are so many great ideas on there that I would love to make happen, the problem has always been, where am I going to find the materials?? (I hit sort of a mini jackpot here) My area of MI is full of OLD falling down barns, rarely however do you get the opportunity to get into them and dig around.. but I found one!!
There was A LOT of things that I wanted to take, but we were offered the opportunity to go back after the people moved out and take more (double score) so I just took a few things: - An old barn ladder, an old metal rake and bucket, some small metal parts and pieces from an old tractor (which are really heavy)...
Here's my loot !!
(PIC TO COME, it's cold today.)
Let's see what I cam make.. I have a few things in mind that I want to try, hopefully they will turn out, and I will post the results, when I'm finished!!
Also with the turn in the weather we've had today from 80 degrees last week, to 47 degrees! (gotta love Michigan weather..) I've found a little indoor project as well... Which will allow me to get out the sketch pad again!! (I haven't drawn in forever)
30 days worth of "Something to do's"
I think I'll get started on that today :) and again I will post the results!
Friday, March 23, 2012
Healthy happy life :)
While watching Television today I came across someone discussing how they ate 35% of their diet off of foraging, (sparked my attention) after watching I realized how healthy it was, and not only that, but how I can remember doing this with my family, and that I still would enjoy doing it today.. Also, It got me thinking about gardening, and how my sister and I were constantly bare foot in the dirt with my mom or my grandma Finn, planting veggies, and picking beans and eating right out of the garden, and we loved it!! So I'm writing this Blog as a reminder; a reminder of how I am thankful that my mother shared these things with me, and of how I want to share them with my son or daughter. :)
Now my family stuck mostly to gardening, But we always hunted for wild Asparagus, Ate some plant from the grass that my mom always called "sweeties" and always picked fruit off of trees, and gathered nuts and things from the ground to eat. I've compiled my own list, somethings which I've tried, and some that I haven't.
Forage for food (sounds medieval right?) but I used to, and still do, do this with my parents, and I think It is very important to teach my children about the benefits of eating fresh foods, also there is something way more rewarding about eating something that you found, and picked on your own. Or even something you grew and tended from a seed. (gardening will be a must in my family) And these are habits that will stick with them (hopefully for life).. Plus I could use some getting back to healthy habits, and mike couldn't hurt from starting some!! Children learn from example.
Here's a list of easy beginner things we can Forage and prepare. (easy to identify)
Stinging nettle has a flavor similar to Spinach when cooked and is rich in vitamins A, C, iron, potassium, manganese, and calcium..Soaking nettles in water or cooking will remove the stinging chemicals from the plant, which allows them to be handled and eaten without incidence of stinging..
Lamb's quarters, (which I see everywhere) Many people mistake this fast-growing annual plant for a worthless weed, but lamb’s quarters are actually edible and quite nutritious. The seeds are a healthy snack and the leaves and stems taste similar to spinach when cooked.
Clover is easy to find in the wilderness. Its seeds are edible, and its dried flower heads can be used to brew tea. You can eat its leaves raw, just immerse them in salt water first to help with digestion. I would add the raw clover leaves into a fresh garden salad..
Resembling onions in appearance and smell, wild leeks commonly emerge during springtime deep in the forests. Both their leaves and bulbs are edible and can be eaten raw, steamed, fried or baked. I have had these before, and grown them in my flower bed back before I moved to the city.. I always called them chives, they are yummy and you can just take a pair of scissors and cut off the amount that you want to use... YUMMO
Wild asparagus, (which my family goes gathering for every year already) is wonderful!! We drive along the back roads out here in Capac when its in season, and you can find it growing in ditches, just look for the past years tall stalks, search around the bottom of them, and you'll find the new asparagus sprouting up. ( my parents also have a small patch in their yard where it grows) Great boiled with butter and salt, wonderful grilled with some olive oil and salted as well!!
Wild mushrooms! Which are so tasty, and my family had also foraged for before. I need some more training to identify them however. (we were with someone who knew mushroom species).. I will def study up before feeding any to my family :) My dad knows someone who has some wooded property where they grow, So I'll have to get a "trainer" and hit the woods..
Also there are a lot of key foods that I'd like to keep handy around my house. Until recently I had no idea that any of these foods could "Cure what ales ya" but they can indeed!! and best of all, there is no fear attached, as natural solutions carry NO side affect, like any manufactures medicine would have..
Healthy health food, go to the FARMacy and not the pharmacy!!
Natural dark chocolate, can be more effective than codeine for coughs (sore throat? Here is some chocolate! I like the sound of that)
Honey!! is an antibacterial and can be applied to skin, helps with cuts and burns, instead of triple antibiotic ointment.. (who'd a thunk it?) apparently Bees make natural antibodies that can treat even more forms of bacteria than the stuff in the tube!!
Fruits of color (purple, reds, blues)--- cherries are great for pain relief 20 cherries = 1 aspirin
Mint muddled into some warm water soothes upset stomach, and reduces pain, no more chalky Pepto :)
Non salted, raw cashews - prevents tooth decay! Snack on these every so often, it's a no brain-er way to have a healthy smile..
**One last little reminder to self: I want to remember to frequent farmers markets in the community, It's something I've always dragged mike to anyway, but it's important to support local growers, and you cannot beat the farm fresh ingredients, and homemade jams, jellies, honey, and other great goods..
Now my family stuck mostly to gardening, But we always hunted for wild Asparagus, Ate some plant from the grass that my mom always called "sweeties" and always picked fruit off of trees, and gathered nuts and things from the ground to eat. I've compiled my own list, somethings which I've tried, and some that I haven't.
Forage for food (sounds medieval right?) but I used to, and still do, do this with my parents, and I think It is very important to teach my children about the benefits of eating fresh foods, also there is something way more rewarding about eating something that you found, and picked on your own. Or even something you grew and tended from a seed. (gardening will be a must in my family) And these are habits that will stick with them (hopefully for life).. Plus I could use some getting back to healthy habits, and mike couldn't hurt from starting some!! Children learn from example.
Here's a list of easy beginner things we can Forage and prepare. (easy to identify)
Stinging nettle has a flavor similar to Spinach when cooked and is rich in vitamins A, C, iron, potassium, manganese, and calcium..Soaking nettles in water or cooking will remove the stinging chemicals from the plant, which allows them to be handled and eaten without incidence of stinging..
Lamb's quarters, (which I see everywhere) Many people mistake this fast-growing annual plant for a worthless weed, but lamb’s quarters are actually edible and quite nutritious. The seeds are a healthy snack and the leaves and stems taste similar to spinach when cooked.
Clover is easy to find in the wilderness. Its seeds are edible, and its dried flower heads can be used to brew tea. You can eat its leaves raw, just immerse them in salt water first to help with digestion. I would add the raw clover leaves into a fresh garden salad..
Resembling onions in appearance and smell, wild leeks commonly emerge during springtime deep in the forests. Both their leaves and bulbs are edible and can be eaten raw, steamed, fried or baked. I have had these before, and grown them in my flower bed back before I moved to the city.. I always called them chives, they are yummy and you can just take a pair of scissors and cut off the amount that you want to use... YUMMO
Wild asparagus, (which my family goes gathering for every year already) is wonderful!! We drive along the back roads out here in Capac when its in season, and you can find it growing in ditches, just look for the past years tall stalks, search around the bottom of them, and you'll find the new asparagus sprouting up. ( my parents also have a small patch in their yard where it grows) Great boiled with butter and salt, wonderful grilled with some olive oil and salted as well!!
Wild mushrooms! Which are so tasty, and my family had also foraged for before. I need some more training to identify them however. (we were with someone who knew mushroom species).. I will def study up before feeding any to my family :) My dad knows someone who has some wooded property where they grow, So I'll have to get a "trainer" and hit the woods..
Also there are a lot of key foods that I'd like to keep handy around my house. Until recently I had no idea that any of these foods could "Cure what ales ya" but they can indeed!! and best of all, there is no fear attached, as natural solutions carry NO side affect, like any manufactures medicine would have..
Healthy health food, go to the FARMacy and not the pharmacy!!
Natural dark chocolate, can be more effective than codeine for coughs (sore throat? Here is some chocolate! I like the sound of that)
Honey!! is an antibacterial and can be applied to skin, helps with cuts and burns, instead of triple antibiotic ointment.. (who'd a thunk it?) apparently Bees make natural antibodies that can treat even more forms of bacteria than the stuff in the tube!!
Fruits of color (purple, reds, blues)--- cherries are great for pain relief 20 cherries = 1 aspirin
Mint muddled into some warm water soothes upset stomach, and reduces pain, no more chalky Pepto :)
Non salted, raw cashews - prevents tooth decay! Snack on these every so often, it's a no brain-er way to have a healthy smile..
**One last little reminder to self: I want to remember to frequent farmers markets in the community, It's something I've always dragged mike to anyway, but it's important to support local growers, and you cannot beat the farm fresh ingredients, and homemade jams, jellies, honey, and other great goods..
Thursday, March 22, 2012
Is this normal??? YUM FOOD
So I have no idea when it's the "normal" time to get food cravings, but for some reason I cannot get enough salty foods... (and yes I know I need to watch my salt intake) I've been eating sooo many Spanish Olives, I bought a bag of salted peanuts, I've been LOVING me some pickles, salted sunflower seeds, salted popcorn, you name it (and put salt on it ) and I want it!!!
Also an odd occurrence this week, I ate steak!! (so your saying, "yea and?") Well the yea and is that I hate steak!! Beef in general actually, and I'm being serious, I think maybe in 5 years of being with mike he's seen me try a bite of steak once and give the rest to him.. But for some reason, I seen them in the store and wanted them.. ( I played it off like it would be nice to cook for mike, but really I wanted it) I ended up eating 1 and a 1/2 and enjoying every second of it.. I wonder if this new development is going to stick after pregnancy??
Weird thing number three, (and then I'm done I swear) I'm normally a seafood freak, Shrimp, scallops, crab, sushi!! Of coarse I haven't eaten any during pregnancy, but my sister brought home some shrimp last night and cooked them for herself and my mom, let me tell you I was beyond GROSSED OUT.. (weird right) for some reason the smell of them had me thinking, why would I ever of eaten that?? All I have to say is...
Dear Child,
You are messing your mommy's taste buds up.
and I would really like to enjoy shrimp again one day.
give the smell a chance, love you <3
Also an odd occurrence this week, I ate steak!! (so your saying, "yea and?") Well the yea and is that I hate steak!! Beef in general actually, and I'm being serious, I think maybe in 5 years of being with mike he's seen me try a bite of steak once and give the rest to him.. But for some reason, I seen them in the store and wanted them.. ( I played it off like it would be nice to cook for mike, but really I wanted it) I ended up eating 1 and a 1/2 and enjoying every second of it.. I wonder if this new development is going to stick after pregnancy??
Weird thing number three, (and then I'm done I swear) I'm normally a seafood freak, Shrimp, scallops, crab, sushi!! Of coarse I haven't eaten any during pregnancy, but my sister brought home some shrimp last night and cooked them for herself and my mom, let me tell you I was beyond GROSSED OUT.. (weird right) for some reason the smell of them had me thinking, why would I ever of eaten that?? All I have to say is...
Dear Child,
You are messing your mommy's taste buds up.
and I would really like to enjoy shrimp again one day.
give the smell a chance, love you <3
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Wonderful week 13
Week 13 of pregnancy has brought with it LOTS of wonderful things.. We have officially been moved and living up at my parents house, and everything has been working out great.. I have stopped having stomach pains (Thank goodness) and I have actually had energy!! To top it off the weather has been wonderful everyday this week.
With 5 people living in one house, Mike and I were worried about never getting time to really talk or relax with each other, but that has worked out great also. Mike leaves for work a little before 3am (and there's no cars on the road) he says the drive isn't bad at all, by the time he gets home, everyone else has left for work, so we get a few hours around the house together, before my dad gets home from work. We have gone for walks out side, and played with the dogs, sat out by the pond, taken drives into town, talked about the future (it's been awesome).. And we have not had ANY arguments, which is a big deal considering how things were before we moved. (partly has to do with the fact that my crazy pregnancy emotions have calmed down), and also I think a lot of stress has been lifted off of our shoulders that was associated with living where we were before. It's so nice to be happy :) ALSO (and this is a big bonus) Mike hasn't been over sleeping at all, hes been wanting to stay awake and spend time with me, and he's been offering his help.. I'm honestly beginning to think that all his breathing/snoring/sleeping problems were associated with the mold in our house, and for that matter my health and mind feels greatly improved as well after getting out of there.
As far as new developments with my body this week (there have been a few) I have noticed that my stomach is getting a little tighter, even though all my clothes still fit the same. My left leg has randomly decided to start going numb (from the baby hitting a nerve) , my sleep has started to become difficult because my legs are getting all tingly and twitchy, and most random of all My gums have started bleeding when I brush my teeth. All things which the doctor said are normal.. Yes you heard correctly THE DOCTOR!! I finally got in to my new and improved OB's office... The baby is great, I'm doing great, all is really great!! It's heartbeat was a strong 140, and We will get to find out on 4/11 the sex of the baby. (as long as he or she wants to show us)
On the down side of all of our happiness, it seems that there are some people that want to create drama in our lives. What timing right, I start feeling better, and we start getting to just enjoy our newly engaged, pregnant life.. There is no need for me to explain who or what is causing the drama.. Me going into detail here will inevitably just create more of it. I would however just like to state my feelings on the matter in general... As far as my relationship, not one of us controls what the other one does. We are a family, one unit, and any decision we make is something that WE discussed and decided upon together. Us moving from Warren to Capac was what was best for both of us, it was not done with the thought of other people in mind, and was not done to hurt anyone. (which I don't get why ppl can't just be happy, we didn't move to Alaska) Mike and I do not sit around and discuss other peoples relationships, and we don't appreciate other people analyzing ours. With that said, there is not a need for people to voice their opinion of mike to me, or their opinion of me to mike. WE would not be together if what we had wasn't real, and didn't work.. and lastly, I am the one that is pregnant, and as much as I appreciate peoples opinions and offers to do things for me, I'm a girl, I've been dreaming about the day I would be a mom since when I was a little girl. I've been planning my baby shower in my head forever.. My idea of a baby shower, is a cute hall, decorated with balloons and other cute things, where all the females get together, eat good food, give me tips, play games ect. I do not want to have 2 showers (one for mine and his fams) I do not want all the men invited, and I do not want my shower to turn into a backyard poker party BBQ. This is not meant to offend anyone.. It's just simply how I want my baby shower.. I want mikes family to meet my family, I want us all in one place, on the same day.. Its my shower, Why am I getting people mad at me for wanting it my way?? I just think that this is such a happy time for me, I'm over the moon about being a mom, and being with mike.. I just don't get why people can't be happy and respect our wishes... I know that certain people have the best intentions at heart, but its starting to cause problems. Making it seem like I'm being a bad guy, and refusing to let ppl plan things for me, is stressing me out. I want to plan my own shower, it shouldn't cause such an uproar..
Even though there's DRAMA, it still doesn't stop the fact that week 13 has been the best yet... I hoping everyone will get over their issues, I'm hoping things will level out. But as mike told me last night, if people don't want to be happy for us, then we don't need to be around those people..
I for one could not be happier... I want to stay stress free, worry free, and drama free
With 5 people living in one house, Mike and I were worried about never getting time to really talk or relax with each other, but that has worked out great also. Mike leaves for work a little before 3am (and there's no cars on the road) he says the drive isn't bad at all, by the time he gets home, everyone else has left for work, so we get a few hours around the house together, before my dad gets home from work. We have gone for walks out side, and played with the dogs, sat out by the pond, taken drives into town, talked about the future (it's been awesome).. And we have not had ANY arguments, which is a big deal considering how things were before we moved. (partly has to do with the fact that my crazy pregnancy emotions have calmed down), and also I think a lot of stress has been lifted off of our shoulders that was associated with living where we were before. It's so nice to be happy :) ALSO (and this is a big bonus) Mike hasn't been over sleeping at all, hes been wanting to stay awake and spend time with me, and he's been offering his help.. I'm honestly beginning to think that all his breathing/snoring/sleeping problems were associated with the mold in our house, and for that matter my health and mind feels greatly improved as well after getting out of there.
As far as new developments with my body this week (there have been a few) I have noticed that my stomach is getting a little tighter, even though all my clothes still fit the same. My left leg has randomly decided to start going numb (from the baby hitting a nerve) , my sleep has started to become difficult because my legs are getting all tingly and twitchy, and most random of all My gums have started bleeding when I brush my teeth. All things which the doctor said are normal.. Yes you heard correctly THE DOCTOR!! I finally got in to my new and improved OB's office... The baby is great, I'm doing great, all is really great!! It's heartbeat was a strong 140, and We will get to find out on 4/11 the sex of the baby. (as long as he or she wants to show us)
On the down side of all of our happiness, it seems that there are some people that want to create drama in our lives. What timing right, I start feeling better, and we start getting to just enjoy our newly engaged, pregnant life.. There is no need for me to explain who or what is causing the drama.. Me going into detail here will inevitably just create more of it. I would however just like to state my feelings on the matter in general... As far as my relationship, not one of us controls what the other one does. We are a family, one unit, and any decision we make is something that WE discussed and decided upon together. Us moving from Warren to Capac was what was best for both of us, it was not done with the thought of other people in mind, and was not done to hurt anyone. (which I don't get why ppl can't just be happy, we didn't move to Alaska) Mike and I do not sit around and discuss other peoples relationships, and we don't appreciate other people analyzing ours. With that said, there is not a need for people to voice their opinion of mike to me, or their opinion of me to mike. WE would not be together if what we had wasn't real, and didn't work.. and lastly, I am the one that is pregnant, and as much as I appreciate peoples opinions and offers to do things for me, I'm a girl, I've been dreaming about the day I would be a mom since when I was a little girl. I've been planning my baby shower in my head forever.. My idea of a baby shower, is a cute hall, decorated with balloons and other cute things, where all the females get together, eat good food, give me tips, play games ect. I do not want to have 2 showers (one for mine and his fams) I do not want all the men invited, and I do not want my shower to turn into a backyard poker party BBQ. This is not meant to offend anyone.. It's just simply how I want my baby shower.. I want mikes family to meet my family, I want us all in one place, on the same day.. Its my shower, Why am I getting people mad at me for wanting it my way?? I just think that this is such a happy time for me, I'm over the moon about being a mom, and being with mike.. I just don't get why people can't be happy and respect our wishes... I know that certain people have the best intentions at heart, but its starting to cause problems. Making it seem like I'm being a bad guy, and refusing to let ppl plan things for me, is stressing me out. I want to plan my own shower, it shouldn't cause such an uproar..
Even though there's DRAMA, it still doesn't stop the fact that week 13 has been the best yet... I hoping everyone will get over their issues, I'm hoping things will level out. But as mike told me last night, if people don't want to be happy for us, then we don't need to be around those people..
I for one could not be happier... I want to stay stress free, worry free, and drama free
Friday, March 9, 2012
First comes marriage then comes baby in a ...... Wait I think I'm doing this backwards :)
So here's a little story...
about a man named mike,
who went to sleep one night,
and woke up engaged!!
(It didn't really happen quite like that, lol but here is the story, just the same)
Mike and I have talked in the past numerous times about getting married.. We know when, and where, who would be in the wedding, ect ect ect... It didn't really make sense that we weren't engaged a long time ago...
He knows what kind of ring I want, where we would go to get it..... LMAO so pretty much we've been engaged for ever, we just never said it to each other. More recently I've been hearing, "I've got to save some money for a ring", and him telling me he wants to ask me, but he needs to think of a special way..
I'm all for special and a pretty ring, but THIS GIRL GOT IMPATIENT!!
We will have our 5 year anniversary just before the baby is born, We've lived together for 4 years, we are having a baby together.... seems kinda of obvious what was next..
I was sitting on the couch last night pondering this while mike was sleeping...... and the next thing I know I'm in the bedroom waking him up..
Here's how it went:
"mike?"
waking up a little confused.. "what?"
"well I've been thinking and.... Can we be engaged?"
Now he's a little more alert "Yeah"
"OK I'm putting it on facebook!"
Now hes really awake, "OK but I wanted to do something special!"
"well, just make something up.."
He smiled, and just to test him, I said "I'm serious I putting in for everyone to see."
"go ahead, we're engaged...." and then, he fell back to sleep... LOL
How romantic was that???
And that my friends is pretty much the jest of it...
We did talk about it again, and by all his smiles I know he was happy about it,
and I joked to him, he's the only man that's gotten engaged in his sleep....
He's happy, I'm happy.... We both knew we were going to be together forever...
The details of the down on one knee BLAH BLAH BLAH don't really matter here....
WE'RE ENGAGED!!!
about a man named mike,
who went to sleep one night,
and woke up engaged!!
(It didn't really happen quite like that, lol but here is the story, just the same)
Mike and I have talked in the past numerous times about getting married.. We know when, and where, who would be in the wedding, ect ect ect... It didn't really make sense that we weren't engaged a long time ago...
He knows what kind of ring I want, where we would go to get it..... LMAO so pretty much we've been engaged for ever, we just never said it to each other. More recently I've been hearing, "I've got to save some money for a ring", and him telling me he wants to ask me, but he needs to think of a special way..
I'm all for special and a pretty ring, but THIS GIRL GOT IMPATIENT!!
We will have our 5 year anniversary just before the baby is born, We've lived together for 4 years, we are having a baby together.... seems kinda of obvious what was next..
I was sitting on the couch last night pondering this while mike was sleeping...... and the next thing I know I'm in the bedroom waking him up..
Here's how it went:
"mike?"
waking up a little confused.. "what?"
"well I've been thinking and.... Can we be engaged?"
Now he's a little more alert "Yeah"
"OK I'm putting it on facebook!"
Now hes really awake, "OK but I wanted to do something special!"
"well, just make something up.."
He smiled, and just to test him, I said "I'm serious I putting in for everyone to see."
"go ahead, we're engaged...." and then, he fell back to sleep... LOL
How romantic was that???
And that my friends is pretty much the jest of it...
We did talk about it again, and by all his smiles I know he was happy about it,
and I joked to him, he's the only man that's gotten engaged in his sleep....
He's happy, I'm happy.... We both knew we were going to be together forever...
The details of the down on one knee BLAH BLAH BLAH don't really matter here....
WE'RE ENGAGED!!!
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
I'm a Non-smoker!! (did I just say that)
Lets start this out by saying if you have never been a smoker you have NO idea how big of an accomplishment this truly is!!
I picked up my first cigarette when I was 16 years old, I want to say it was to impress a boy. It was an occasional thing for awhile, and then slowly but surly became a routine (and addiction). By the end of that first year I was a pack a day smoker :( I can't even recall how that was possible since legally I could even buy them for another 2 years.). Me and my friends would have someone get them for us, numerous packs at a time, or find someone and just ask them (which worked a lot)... regardless, it started... For ten years I had smoked those little things, with 2 or 3 failed attempts at quitting in between... Lets just say after ten years I had a pretty strong addiction.. Pretty soon day to day activities became attached with smoking. For example, driving in the car, after eating a meal, while talking on the phone. These three were the hardest...
I found out I was pregnant on January 20th, 2012 that moment I went from smoking 20 cigarettes a day, to just 2 and a 1/2 or 3 cigarettes... I didn't and couldn't quit cold turkey. And I don't think the with-drawls would have been good for the baby (not that the smoking was). So that same night (the 20th) mike bought me my final pack of cigarettes. I took it slow, (as I was still getting numerous cravings) I would light the cigarette, take 1-3 puffs and then put it out. making one last the time that 3 would have normally. What would of lasted 1 day, ended up lasting me 5. On the 25th of January I smoked my last cigarette, and I haven't had a single one since.
I'm so proud to say that I have officially been 42 days without a cigarette..
and even though sometimes something still triggers a craving, I AM A NON SMOKER!! and I couldn't be more proud of myself...
Thank you baby, for giving mommy strength, and making her healthier :)
I picked up my first cigarette when I was 16 years old, I want to say it was to impress a boy. It was an occasional thing for awhile, and then slowly but surly became a routine (and addiction). By the end of that first year I was a pack a day smoker :( I can't even recall how that was possible since legally I could even buy them for another 2 years.). Me and my friends would have someone get them for us, numerous packs at a time, or find someone and just ask them (which worked a lot)... regardless, it started... For ten years I had smoked those little things, with 2 or 3 failed attempts at quitting in between... Lets just say after ten years I had a pretty strong addiction.. Pretty soon day to day activities became attached with smoking. For example, driving in the car, after eating a meal, while talking on the phone. These three were the hardest...
I found out I was pregnant on January 20th, 2012 that moment I went from smoking 20 cigarettes a day, to just 2 and a 1/2 or 3 cigarettes... I didn't and couldn't quit cold turkey. And I don't think the with-drawls would have been good for the baby (not that the smoking was). So that same night (the 20th) mike bought me my final pack of cigarettes. I took it slow, (as I was still getting numerous cravings) I would light the cigarette, take 1-3 puffs and then put it out. making one last the time that 3 would have normally. What would of lasted 1 day, ended up lasting me 5. On the 25th of January I smoked my last cigarette, and I haven't had a single one since.
I'm so proud to say that I have officially been 42 days without a cigarette..
and even though sometimes something still triggers a craving, I AM A NON SMOKER!! and I couldn't be more proud of myself...
Thank you baby, for giving mommy strength, and making her healthier :)
Monday, March 5, 2012
Meet Michael :)
Meet the daddy, for those of you that don't really know Michael, here is some info on the DADDY TO BE..
Mike and I have been together for 4 years (It'll be 5 in September) .. Even though he drives me nuts sometimes he is a great guy! He is 27 as am I, and is also going to be a first time parent.. Mike was there for me during a REALLY painful time in my life, and at times he was the only thing keeping me sane. On occasion our relationship has been strained to say the least, but we have always found a way to get back to each other. I give him a lot of credit for sticking around during all of my "issues". (those that know me, know what tragedy happened in my life, no need to re open it) He has an amazing heart, and will give our child nothing but love... He works hard, and is very funny (if you get to know him well enough **hes very shy**) This experience of having our first child is obviously new to both of us, and like anything new, it is taking some adjusting. No matter what is happening right now however, mike is going to be an amazing father.. (and ;) If he's not, I'm going to kick some butt!!)
It's funny, the week before I found out I was pregnant I was sketching wedding ideas in my little notebook.. With the new discoveries "wedding bells" will be postponed, I like a good party to much to attend my own wedding reception while pregnant. : ) Secretly however, I would love to have a ring on my finger before our little one gets here...
Names, names, names..
Okay I just want to add this short little entry... I am dying to have a little girl, and whatever little cutie (boy or girl) that I do end up with I want to put a lot of thought into their name.
So what is easier than asking for opinions on what I've come up with...
Now of coarse I've thought up more girl names than boy... (LOL I can't help it)
Lets get the short list out of the way first :
Mason
Hunter
Brady
LOL and that's it... (so far)
Here comes the girls.. Some of them are a little out there, but I've been testing them in my head and they are growing on me.. I won't tell which is my favorite
Madison
Harper
Kailyn (side note: I just asked mike how he would spell kailyn, and he told me with a silent T.. lol ok)
Novalee
Brynne
Kayden
Skylar
Scarlet
Avalyn
Basically I want a unique first name, with a meaningful middle name, I figure for boy we can tie in something from mike and I's Grandfathers, and girl my Great Grandmothers name was Cora, and it would be beautiful as a middle name... I also really like willow as a middle name (it reminds me of my Grandpa Finn)
OPINIONS PLEASE
So what is easier than asking for opinions on what I've come up with...
Now of coarse I've thought up more girl names than boy... (LOL I can't help it)
Lets get the short list out of the way first :
Mason
Hunter
Brady
LOL and that's it... (so far)
Here comes the girls.. Some of them are a little out there, but I've been testing them in my head and they are growing on me.. I won't tell which is my favorite
Madison
Harper
Kailyn (side note: I just asked mike how he would spell kailyn, and he told me with a silent T.. lol ok)
Novalee
Brynne
Kayden
Skylar
Scarlet
Avalyn
Basically I want a unique first name, with a meaningful middle name, I figure for boy we can tie in something from mike and I's Grandfathers, and girl my Great Grandmothers name was Cora, and it would be beautiful as a middle name... I also really like willow as a middle name (it reminds me of my Grandpa Finn)
OPINIONS PLEASE
I should write it all down DUH!!
It dawned on me, while sitting up late tonight, that I should be documenting my thoughts, feelings and emotions during this, my first pregnancy. I have named this blog MADE FROM LOVE, because in all the frustration and stress that is one thing I never want to forget. I am in week 12 and one week away from being out of this rocky first trimester. (fingers crossed, and wish me luck in the next one). The range of emotions I have felt thus far have been a roller coaster to say the least. Most days I feel like I need to vent, I need someone to pour my feelings out to. Since I really don't have that, I suppose this will suffice as an outlet of emotion, and story, that one day I will enjoy to look back on.
Week 6- I had been feeling horrible for about 2 weeks, Not knowing that I was pregnant, I figured it was a bad stomach flu, or some kind of intestinal infection (which I had been hospitalized for before, and should show just how much pain I was feeling) I had made up my mind that it was painful enough to be considered an emergency, and a trip to the ER was in order. I'm not really sure why but something told me "take a pregnancy test" so I sent mike to the store while I got ready for the hospital. I took the test, "positive" took another "positive", both in shock; and me even more scared about the stomach pain, we headed to the ER. We sat there for quite awhile, me freezing in my hospital gown, grossed out by my IV, and mike sitting in the chair "not really helping the situation" (I think he just didn't know how stressed I was that something was wrong) LOOOONNNGGG story short, after a catheter, blood work, urine sample, two types of ultra sounds, and one hell of a long wait, I was finally told everything was fine. However the "Sometimes its just painful, this is your first pregnancy" answer pissed me off! I knew something wasn't right, there's a difference in pain and PAIN... The one good outcome of the trip was, I got a due date 10/14/12, only 4 days after mikes birthday, and the nice girl giving me the ultrasound, let me see the little circle with a grain of rice looking thing attached to it (my baby) and hear the amazing little heartbeat... Thanks to that girl, she wasn't supposed to show me :)
week 7- Neither Mike or I could wait to tell our families, A: because they wanted to know what I found out was making me sick, B: because we both can't keep a secret, and C: because we were both excited about it. Now I was nervous when I told my mom, not sure why, just was, but her reaction was AWESOME, I think she sang a little song about a bambino, and then asked me to name it Tristan.. Mom's a quack :) Mikes mom was just as excited.. This week I again visited the ER, this time alone after I dropped mike off at work at 4 am. The pain never went away, but I moved trying to get out of our bed and felt a stabbing almost burning, tearing pain in my right lower stomach. Scared the crap out of me!! This time they really didn't do JACK in the hospital... I got a pelvic exam, and was sent home, this is after another nurse telling me that my pain was nothing, "it's your first pregnancy" BLAH BLAH BLAH!! plus the little jerk put my IV in wrong and it was SOOO painful, and was leaking water all over my arm.. needless to say I was pissed... I just wanted answers to why I felt this way. And since I don't have insurance of my own here begins the waiting game to make an appt with a primary doctor..NOTE: I have not had morning sickness yet, but I have been extremely and chronically nauseous and boy does it suck...
Week 8- After a week of calling the hospital and trying to get my paper work in order, I finally got into an OBGYN. Mike got a ride to work, and I went to my appt. They gave me all kinds of pamphlets and magazines. Took lots of blood, did a PAP, and an ultrasound, this time we couldn't see the baby, only a little tiny flicker like a firefly on the screen (the heart beat), but we heard a good strong heart beat.. 154 (hoping that means it's a girl) The doctor told me that the most likely answer to the pain I've been having was that the extra hormones are causing tiny clusters of cysts to form. There is nothing they can do about this, I just have to let them burst. No test were done though to confirm that this is the source of the pain, so needless to say I'm still worried about it.
This week we started cleaning out the spare room, to paint for a nursery, and we discovered mold growing on the walls and carpet in the closet... YAY :( after some investigation it was discovered that the downspout on the gutter was missing and the rain had been seeping in.. It also ruined all of our spare blankets and comforters that were stored in the closet.. NOTE: my sleeping habit have been horrible I've been staying up until the sun comes up, and am completely exhausted
Week 9 &10- CAPAC DAYS, Because of the mold, my feeling so sick, mike being gone all the time, and feeling lonely, my sister came and got me and the dog, and we headed up to moms house. What was going to be a one week stay turned into a two week stay, but I enjoyed it a lot. My pain still has not gone away, and during my time at moms I was having a lot of difficulty using the bathroom, and that made the pain 10x worse. I have not had much of an appetite, and still though no vomiting, am feeling sick almost 24/7. while I was here mike discovered that our landlord had no real intentions of taking care of the mold situation.. and I am NOT putting a child in a room, where there could be mold in the walls.. Still not feeling up to par, mike came to pick me up, and home we went.. NOTE: Started thinking of baby names, I liked Novalee, dad and mike hated it... we will see :)
Week 11- This week has been on and off. I've still be getting spells of pain daily, and the nausea is still really bad. Mike has started to really drive me crazy. I haven't done much around the house, because of the way I've been feeling, but he is not understanding or helpful at all! I think we have argued close to everyday, and I can't control my emotions, OMG I've been crying like crazy. He makes remarks to me that piss me off, comparing me to other pregnant woman, and telling me how I should be feeling.. He doesn't understand the pain I'm in. and the fear I'm having of overdoing it through the pain and losing the baby. I think I'm becoming resentful, because I feel like he should be worried and WANT me to take it easy, and help me out. He still hasn't asked me any questions about the baby, or even tried to touch my stomach.. This REALLY bothers me.. I also overdid it one night this week.. I've felt like a hermit over the last few weeks so I went out with my family, and then some friends... By the time I got home I was sooo tired, and my stomach really hurt. Then I felt the worst pain EVER... I got a stab in that same lower right side that literally doubled me over... It was instant tears, mike helped me into bed and I made him rub my back.. It hurt so BAD... It lasted about five mins and then was gone... still very scary... NOTE: It had been decided, we are moving in with my parents for a couple months.. We can't stay in the mold, and never wanted to raise a child in the city anyways.. **Wish us luck finding a new country home.
Week 12- I've still been very frustrated with mike, he's been sleeping A LOT, and not really helping much. Plus everything and everyone seems to have been ticking me off lately... I had my 12 week appointment (or was supposed to) but they cancelled on me as I was putting my shoes on to walk out the door!! apparently the plan of insurance that the state gave me is not accepted by them... So a million phone calls later and now I'm waiting for a new doctors green light to take me on as a patient... so I'm pretty pissed about that. esp because I've still been very sick, and have been having lots of sporadic stabs in that lower side. plus have had non-stop headaches... We (with the help of my sister) started packing this week. We got a lot done (meaning me and Kayla) there's still a lot left to do.. and mike was only awake out of bed for 4 hours out of the last 24.. I could KILL him!! wheres the help?? as for now, week 12 is still underway, I've got a pounding headache, so I'm signing off. more to come.....
Week 6- I had been feeling horrible for about 2 weeks, Not knowing that I was pregnant, I figured it was a bad stomach flu, or some kind of intestinal infection (which I had been hospitalized for before, and should show just how much pain I was feeling) I had made up my mind that it was painful enough to be considered an emergency, and a trip to the ER was in order. I'm not really sure why but something told me "take a pregnancy test" so I sent mike to the store while I got ready for the hospital. I took the test, "positive" took another "positive", both in shock; and me even more scared about the stomach pain, we headed to the ER. We sat there for quite awhile, me freezing in my hospital gown, grossed out by my IV, and mike sitting in the chair "not really helping the situation" (I think he just didn't know how stressed I was that something was wrong) LOOOONNNGGG story short, after a catheter, blood work, urine sample, two types of ultra sounds, and one hell of a long wait, I was finally told everything was fine. However the "Sometimes its just painful, this is your first pregnancy" answer pissed me off! I knew something wasn't right, there's a difference in pain and PAIN... The one good outcome of the trip was, I got a due date 10/14/12, only 4 days after mikes birthday, and the nice girl giving me the ultrasound, let me see the little circle with a grain of rice looking thing attached to it (my baby) and hear the amazing little heartbeat... Thanks to that girl, she wasn't supposed to show me :)
week 7- Neither Mike or I could wait to tell our families, A: because they wanted to know what I found out was making me sick, B: because we both can't keep a secret, and C: because we were both excited about it. Now I was nervous when I told my mom, not sure why, just was, but her reaction was AWESOME, I think she sang a little song about a bambino, and then asked me to name it Tristan.. Mom's a quack :) Mikes mom was just as excited.. This week I again visited the ER, this time alone after I dropped mike off at work at 4 am. The pain never went away, but I moved trying to get out of our bed and felt a stabbing almost burning, tearing pain in my right lower stomach. Scared the crap out of me!! This time they really didn't do JACK in the hospital... I got a pelvic exam, and was sent home, this is after another nurse telling me that my pain was nothing, "it's your first pregnancy" BLAH BLAH BLAH!! plus the little jerk put my IV in wrong and it was SOOO painful, and was leaking water all over my arm.. needless to say I was pissed... I just wanted answers to why I felt this way. And since I don't have insurance of my own here begins the waiting game to make an appt with a primary doctor..NOTE: I have not had morning sickness yet, but I have been extremely and chronically nauseous and boy does it suck...
Week 8- After a week of calling the hospital and trying to get my paper work in order, I finally got into an OBGYN. Mike got a ride to work, and I went to my appt. They gave me all kinds of pamphlets and magazines. Took lots of blood, did a PAP, and an ultrasound, this time we couldn't see the baby, only a little tiny flicker like a firefly on the screen (the heart beat), but we heard a good strong heart beat.. 154 (hoping that means it's a girl) The doctor told me that the most likely answer to the pain I've been having was that the extra hormones are causing tiny clusters of cysts to form. There is nothing they can do about this, I just have to let them burst. No test were done though to confirm that this is the source of the pain, so needless to say I'm still worried about it.
This week we started cleaning out the spare room, to paint for a nursery, and we discovered mold growing on the walls and carpet in the closet... YAY :( after some investigation it was discovered that the downspout on the gutter was missing and the rain had been seeping in.. It also ruined all of our spare blankets and comforters that were stored in the closet.. NOTE: my sleeping habit have been horrible I've been staying up until the sun comes up, and am completely exhausted
Week 9 &10- CAPAC DAYS, Because of the mold, my feeling so sick, mike being gone all the time, and feeling lonely, my sister came and got me and the dog, and we headed up to moms house. What was going to be a one week stay turned into a two week stay, but I enjoyed it a lot. My pain still has not gone away, and during my time at moms I was having a lot of difficulty using the bathroom, and that made the pain 10x worse. I have not had much of an appetite, and still though no vomiting, am feeling sick almost 24/7. while I was here mike discovered that our landlord had no real intentions of taking care of the mold situation.. and I am NOT putting a child in a room, where there could be mold in the walls.. Still not feeling up to par, mike came to pick me up, and home we went.. NOTE: Started thinking of baby names, I liked Novalee, dad and mike hated it... we will see :)
Week 11- This week has been on and off. I've still be getting spells of pain daily, and the nausea is still really bad. Mike has started to really drive me crazy. I haven't done much around the house, because of the way I've been feeling, but he is not understanding or helpful at all! I think we have argued close to everyday, and I can't control my emotions, OMG I've been crying like crazy. He makes remarks to me that piss me off, comparing me to other pregnant woman, and telling me how I should be feeling.. He doesn't understand the pain I'm in. and the fear I'm having of overdoing it through the pain and losing the baby. I think I'm becoming resentful, because I feel like he should be worried and WANT me to take it easy, and help me out. He still hasn't asked me any questions about the baby, or even tried to touch my stomach.. This REALLY bothers me.. I also overdid it one night this week.. I've felt like a hermit over the last few weeks so I went out with my family, and then some friends... By the time I got home I was sooo tired, and my stomach really hurt. Then I felt the worst pain EVER... I got a stab in that same lower right side that literally doubled me over... It was instant tears, mike helped me into bed and I made him rub my back.. It hurt so BAD... It lasted about five mins and then was gone... still very scary... NOTE: It had been decided, we are moving in with my parents for a couple months.. We can't stay in the mold, and never wanted to raise a child in the city anyways.. **Wish us luck finding a new country home.
Week 12- I've still been very frustrated with mike, he's been sleeping A LOT, and not really helping much. Plus everything and everyone seems to have been ticking me off lately... I had my 12 week appointment (or was supposed to) but they cancelled on me as I was putting my shoes on to walk out the door!! apparently the plan of insurance that the state gave me is not accepted by them... So a million phone calls later and now I'm waiting for a new doctors green light to take me on as a patient... so I'm pretty pissed about that. esp because I've still been very sick, and have been having lots of sporadic stabs in that lower side. plus have had non-stop headaches... We (with the help of my sister) started packing this week. We got a lot done (meaning me and Kayla) there's still a lot left to do.. and mike was only awake out of bed for 4 hours out of the last 24.. I could KILL him!! wheres the help?? as for now, week 12 is still underway, I've got a pounding headache, so I'm signing off. more to come.....
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